Jehovah Jirah

GOD IS SO GOOD.
Yeah, he really is. And I was just thinking about how much he's provided for me today and was like... WHATT THIS IS INSANE. So thought I'd just post about all that he's done for me. 'cause he is worthy of all our praise.

Let's just start from last Friday shall we?
Basics. I kinda have a lot of problem with money. For one, I never have any, and two, well, I spend it insanely quickly on things I don't need when I do. So most of the time, I have no money. Which is actually pretty good right now because it means I don't spend it on alcohol or anything, but is a little bit of an issue because it means I can't really go out and do things with my friendies, and as fun as staying at home is and watching endless episodes of 'private practice' - I kinda love my friends a little too much to not see them. So, I'm in my room doing some work and a letter comes through the door which says 'you can pretend you found this on the floor' which had a tenner in it! With this I was then able to hang out with my friendies playing games in the Interval and buy myself a drink! Yay :)
So then, I find out I only have 5 days worth of my medication left, with no idea how to figure out the repeat prescription thingy and no money to pay for any more and basically, a little screwed. Then, I receive a phone call from my Doctors on Tuesday asking whether I could rearrange my appointment 'cause my Doctor had to go on a conference or something, and so while I was on the phone to the receptionist I asked her about my prescription and she tells me she can print it off and I can collect it tomorrow (where I would be taking my second-to-last day of medication.) So that was great, but I still had no money for it.

Then I skyped one of my oldest friends Tuesday evening, and ended up talking for two and a half hours and out of it I got an accountability buddy, someone who I've been praying for ages to get and I was like... WHATT?! 

So then yesterday was my scary assessment day, and God provided me with everything I needed for the day, including a good WHEAT FREE cake before hand, a lovely Sarah Taylor who came with me and gave me moral support and then drove me on to my discipleship group, where my drink was provided for me and then after that my dinner. I didn't want to do anything but God surrounded me with my friends from life group for a social where we saw some (interesting) fireworks and generally had a lovely time, and then I came back and BEAUTY AND THE BEAST was on the television. (My favey movie.) and then on my way home from that social one of my nearest friends asked me whether I was okay, and then I ended up going to his for a cup of tea and just had to have a lovely chat where for the first time I didn't have to talk about my emotions or anything, just got to enjoy life with other people.
So then I get home (FINALLY, at like half 11) and decided that I should actually do some reading for my lecture today, so stayed up and did a little bit of reading, when I then heard some noise from Tom's room, and so I went in and had a really lovely chat with him and Mikey. Then, I found an INSANE amount of change on his floor, and so being the nerd I am, I start counting it all, and gave him a 'owly bank' for him to put it in so he can stop wasting money getting more notes out when he had a rather large amount of money on his bedroom floor! I am then allowed to borrow some of that money, meaning I had the exact amount of money IN CHANGE to pay for my medication today!

So I wake up today, and felt awful, so didn't make it to my morning lecture and to be honest, I was planning to spend most of it in bed, but I got a text from my friend who I was due to meet up with and he was like.. DUDEE I'll buy you a hot chocolate if you come in! So I very reluctantly start leaving the house and walk down the hill towards the Interval, where I see the pharmacy at the bottom of my road so go in to get my meds, turns out they're looking for health care assistants!! Part-time too and the shifts they want are the days I have off! So at the same time I manage to get an application which I am currently filling out. BUT. I had forgotten my National Insurance Card (what an idiot I know!) and then I get a text from my mummy saying she'd found it and texted me the number, so I don't look like I'm like.. lying or anything.

And then, BAM, my friend whips out a massive bar of aero chocolate for me :) BABE. I know. And then I just have some casual nice times with my two friends before my lecture, which I then went to and got some really good advice for my essay, meaning that I wouldn't start it and then find out I've got more work to do and change it all, and then suddenly half way through the lecture the lecturer comes up and gives me a bar of galaxy chocolate, for getting a nerdy question right last week! I also got to sit next to another friend I hadn't spoken to in a while and it was really nice. THEN (yes, it goes on) I get a text from my friend asking me what type of chocolate I like, and then when I returned home after picking up my medication and after a very lovely hot shower home alone which meant I could sing very loudly I walk into my room to find a even bigger bar of galaxy! So then I was just blown away by how awesome God is. Then I remembered another application form I needed my NIN for and filled it in and then went straight out to hand it in down the road, and then went to sainsburies where I bought some potatos and cauliflower for a yummy tea I'm gonna have which will actually be HEALTHY and YUMMY. yay :)

So basically, God provides. Flip me in ways I never even comprehended. You are so good Jesus! I love you. 

Honestly

So, I haven't written in a while. I don't really have any reasons why, it's simply because I haven't had anything to write! But I was thinking about well, two seconds ago and I thought- why not just write out how I'm feeling. 

Basics. I feel weird. I guess that's the only way I can put it. I feel like the people in my life are friends who look after me but I don't get to look after them, and that is hard. Don't get me wrong, I have the best support network in the history of awesomeness with people who love me. And I love them. A lot. But I feel like people see me as someone who cannot help them because I'm a little unstable sometimes, but actually, what I love more than well, most things except Jesus, is helping. Being able to encourage and love my friends to be the best they can be and support them in their problems once in a while. I don't think they realise that this is one of the things that I actually love about life, is counselling and just being able to love them all. 

So yeah. This is a weird post but basically - I WANT TO HELP. Don't be afraid to ask me for help, don't assume that I'm not okay enough to talk about it, or look out for you. Yeah. That's about it. 

We sing la la la la, la la

I love music. I listen to it all the time. And as I was listening to some lovely music I was thinking about how many songs remind me about other people. How much I care about them, how I want them to be okay. So I want to write out a playlist of love for those closest to me. If I love you and you're reading this, see how much I care about you, and take them seriously. I love you. I love you I love you I love you. Yup. ♥

♥ Stay Beautiful - Taylor Swift
♥ I'm Only Me When I'm With You - Taylor Swift
♥ Come So Far (Got So Far To Go) - Hairspray
♥ Good Riddance (Time of Your Life) - Greenday
♥ What Makes You Different (Makes You Beautiful) - Backstreet Boys
♥ Last Train Home- Ryan Star
♥ Wherever You Will Go - The Calling
♥ Ultimate - Lindsay Lohan

Haha. They're all so cheesy right?! I have a lot of other songs but I think that'll do for now :)

Here I go Again

I am ridiculous sometimes. Gah. 

For some reason, I always need some ridiculous amount of company. I don't mind being on my own, as long as I know I'm still talking to people via text, having a message/letter to reply to. But if I'm on my own I get ridiculously sad and a little desperate.

I don't know why I do it, or why I even care, I'm a very entertaining person and generally tend to get along with myself. But the moment I stop talking to any person I get ridiculous. And so so sad. I'm just a tad lonely.

I can't wait to see my friends in Sheffield again. I'm excited ♥ Anyway, does anybody have some ideas on how to feel better about this?

How long must I wrestle?

Hey friends.

For those of you whom want to know what this feels like, I found the perfect verse in the Bible to explain my feelings. How awesome is that?! I mean, God totally understands, he has this IN the Bible! It matters, it's a real thing. That's nice to hear.
ANYWAY. Shall I give you the verse now? 

Psalm 13

'How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Look on me and answer, Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death, and my enemy will say, 'I have overcome him,' and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing the Lord's praise, for he has been good to me.'

I'm not too sure why I decided I wanted to put this in a post, but I guess I just want people to be able to understand, to be able to let them in when I have no words to describe what's going on inside my head, and when I read this verse I was just like.. YES. This is so true. Not completely what it is but enough to let you into my life a little bit. Basically, it sucks.

Just want to feel okay again

I promised myself I would stop doing this, but I just can't help it. Mumma says I need to do things to stop myself from moping around the house, and I just can't think of anything else to do right now. MORE SILLY QUESTIONS again (: I should learn to be able to put these in a place where you don't have to read them with my serious posts. Someday...

1. What is your first name?: Sarah. :)
2. Do you enjoy school?: Hmm, not so much. But I do like uni, and learning.
3. Are you a girly girl?: In some aspects. I love romantic films and wearing dresses, but I also love watching football and well, most sports on tv (:
4. Who was the last person you hugged?: I believe it was my sister Judith this afternoon. I  love hugging, we should do it more often.
5. Small or large purses?: Are we talking like, purses as in bags (American style) 'cause then I prefer small ones, I have a pretty big purse at the moment and it's gorgeous (:
6. Are you short?: Not particularly, I'm not like, insanely tall but I like to think I'm above average :)
7. Do you like somebody?: Yes.
8. What would you do if someone smacked your butt?: Depends on who it was. I had a stranger do it once and I was proper annoyed. If it were a friend or something, I'd probably laugh.
9. Do you care if your socks are dirty?: Well they tend to go in the wash as soon as I've worn them so I don't really know.
10. Do you dress up on Halloween?: This year I did! Although it wasn't really dressing up FOR Halloween, it just happened to be Halloween, we dressed up as 'scary tarts,' it was an interesting night!
11. Are you double jointed?: Not as far as I'm aware.
12. Where is the weirdest place you have slept?: Haha, yeah let's not go there. 
13. Has anyone touched/smacked your butt in the past 24 hours?: No they have not.
14. Do you call anybody by their last name?: I do. But not that often, I'm more likely to shout their whole name, I'm that kinda person, plus it feels just that little bit more personal ya'no?

"X" Marks the Spot:

[x] I do wear make up (Only sometimes!)

[x] I have cried at a movie theater.

[x] I can put mascara on without opening my mouth.

[x] I get jealous

[x] I think Zac Efron is sexy.

[x] I love to laugh.

[x] I like death/grind/black metal.

[] I like rap

[x] I like country/

[] I carry a purse.

[x] I'd be lost without my computer.

[x] I own a Spice Girls CD.

[x] I own a Britney Spears CD.

[x] I own a boy band CD.

[] I get bored watching football.

[] I've never been called a spoiled brat.

[x] Guys are confusing.

[x] I've been called a bad influence.

[] I have/had a piercing other than my ears.

15. What colour is the bra that you're wearing?: Purple.

16. Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?: Dark please :)

17: Are you currently frustrated with a boy?: Oh man all the time.

18. Do you have a best friend(s)?: I do indeed. :)

19. Have you had your heart broken? Oh boy have I?!

20. Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery? Yeah definitely not...

21. Do you like your life?: Yes I do.

22. Has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you?: Not officially. It's a long story.

23. Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?: I have indeed.

24. Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?: Oooh I'm not sure actually! I get along better with guys, but I have a few very lovely girlfriends whom are my faves.

25. How long have you had Facebook?: Hmmm, since the beginning of year 10.

26. Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?: Oh yes I have.

27. What are you biggest fears?: Yeah that's a little too deep for a short survey. Mostly though, rejection.

28. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?: Yes.

29. Have you ever not been able to get someone off your mind?: I have. But I think it was more because I wanted to like someone enough to get them off of my mind, rather than actually having them on my mind without realising, like, they mean that much to me.

30. Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater"?: I most certainly do not.

31. Have you ever had a good feeling about something?: I have.

32. Do you ever wish you were famous? Sometimes, right now though, I think I'm okay with not being so.

33. Are you currently missing someone?: Rather a lot. A lot, a lot a lot.

This guy or that guy?

Punk/Goth or Gangster?: Hmm? I guess I'd go for punk. Although tbh I probably wouldn't go for any of them, not that I have any problem with them, they're just not my type.

Preppy or Cowboy?: Cowboy. It has been a complete dream to marry a cowboy.

Face or Body?: Face.

Sweet or Sexy?: Awwh man can't they be both?

Well-educated or Dropout?: It depends on why they're a dropout...

City-Slicker or Rural Guy?: Hmm doesn't really matter. I love the country though.

Blue, Green, Grey, or Brown eyes?: As long as they're gorgey I don't really mind.

I remember everything

I'm not entirely sure what the point of this post is meant to be, so I apologise if it's even more rambly than normal. Okay. So let's just start and see where we end up hey?

That quote up there, is one by the
gorgeous Pacey Witter. And yes, he is a fictional character. Well, Joshua Jackson, the man who plays this person is gorgeous, but his personality is well- not quite the same I would imagine! Joshua Jackson was one of my first celebrity crushes from the mighty ducks, but when I accidentally stumbled upon Dawson's Creek (which, actually, happened after searching for cute quotes for this blog and it turned out this programme had lots of them, so I decided to watch it,) and saw him as this character, oh boy I fell. 

But I realised something recently, I am terrified of the real thing. I fall for fictional characters all the time (Edward Cullen, Seth Cohen, Nathan Scott, Lucas Scott, Dr McDreamy, Callum McGregor, Noah Calhoun .. and I could go on for days.) Through reading many romantic novels and watching teenage dramas I just fall for the most obvious guys, the ones that the writers clearly make up to attract more viewers. And I just wish they were real. And I want their relationships in said story to work out, because I want them to be happy. Genuinely, when Seth and Summer broke up the first time and he was really depressed towards the end of season 2, I was horrific, just so sad. It was ridiculous I admit, but I get that obsessed with it. 

Now I've been dreaming of my perfect wedding for the longest time, been asking adults about babies since I was 8 years old (literally) and just waiting for my own perfect romance, with the guy of my dreams. But the problem is, I have been so crushed in the past from my one last serious relationship, I refuse to let guys know how I really feel. I'll tell other people, and let myself like them probably more than I would do normally, just to have someone to like, as a sort of possibility to make sure my hopes of marriage are still alive, but I would never dream about doing anything about them. (Well, not intentionally anyway.) I am just so so scared of having that dream taken from underneath me that I don't even bother to take any risks. So I fall for characters I will never meet and keep myself trapped in a half-life. I don't like this about myself, but I know it's definitely true.

So yes, the challenge for myself, and you, if you go through the same sorts of things, is to learn to not be afraid. So when that perfect person comes along, we don't miss out because we're too scared to do anything about it. Don't waste your time on people that aren't real, or you might just miss them.

Now that I see you

Woo. Time for some fun questions!
Don't worry guys, it isn't one of those surveys I like doing sometimes, although it is slightly similar.
I thought I'd just give you a little glimpse into my life at the moment, so I'm gonna ask some classic 'd&m' questions (:

What have you been thinking about lately?
How awesome Jesus is, I know I say things like this all the time, but I've been really contemplating it at the moment, and I just fall more and more in love with him. I realised that some of the only times I don't feel depressed is at Church, and I know that has something to do with the Joy of the Lord (Nehemiah 8:10) , and I just want to learn about how to put that into my normal life, not just simply on a Sunday morning.

What's been on your mind?
Isn't that the same question as before? I guess it is slightly different. I have been thinking about Jesus, (standard), and what I'm going to do with myself back at university, and how to get a schedule and see the doctors and basically, trying to sort my life out.

What are you excited about at the moment?
Hmm.. seeing my lovely friends again, I'm not really looking forward to leaving home and everything for another year, but I have made some amazing friends in Sheffield and I cannot wait to have them in my lief again. I love them so much. Especially YOU.

When was the last time you made a difference to somebody?
Honestly? I have no idea. I like to think I inspire people when I'm at the front of Church on the worship team, so that would be this morning. But I was wearing an old jumper and my family were making jokes about me being a grunge worship leader.. so I'm not really sure.
That sucks actually, because I care about my friends BIG TIME and I really want to help their lives be the best they can be, but I can't think of when I last did that. Gutted.

Who are you really happy for at the moment?
My sisters. They are absolutely amazing. Judith is doing amazing things with her Christian Union in Cardiff, and I'm so excited for what God's gonna do through her life. And Hazel has just gotten her first job, and within a year she'll be qualified to be a personal trainer! I'm so proud of how well she's doing.

When was the last time you felt inspired?
Earlier today, whilst I was writing my recent thoughts of prayer in my Christian Journal thingabob. Just really thinking about what I believe about it and why I do, I'm really getting somewhere. :)

If you could be in your dream place at the moment what would you be doing?
I would be, with my beauts best friends, on the beach in Spain, or just in southern Spain during the summer, just having amazing fellowship and loving God. Or you know.. I would be married and on my honeymoon with the perfect guy, that would be pretty cool too.

If somebody was describing your personality what would they say?
I'm not sure, a lot of people say I'm 'highly strung' but they would also say that I always have a smile on my face, and that I am compassionate and care about everyone I know. They would also say that I am a complete child at heart, whilst watching glee and disney films etc. And that I talk about Jesus way more than I should do (in their opinion.) I imagine they would say some of my many faults too.

What are you most proud of?
How far I've come in my relationship with God this year. I love him so so much. He has bee the biggest support of my life and has blessed me with so many things. I love the fact I'm learning to not hold back in my relationship with him, that I get excited about doing my Bible Study every night before I go to sleep (am currently reading Ezekiel) and that instead of blaming him for my circumstances, I thank him for getting me through it.

What's been tempting you lately?
Hahaha. A boy. Ridiculous huh?! I seriously hope he doesn't read this. But yeah, I have this friend who likes to spend his time trying in vain to send pictures of myself to him, and basically just flirting with me a LOT. And it's really fun ya'no, the banter that comes from it all (obviously I have never sent such a picture) and it makes me feel so good about myself, that at least one person finds me attractive. But there's a guy whom I really like, like, really like, and I don't want to screw that up on a fleeting flirt. But I don't think he sees me that way anyway so what's the point? Oh man. I'm gonna regret writing this.Or letting people see it. But hey I decided to be honest right?

What's been the one most consistent thing in your life?
Jesus. Obviously. But seeing as how I treat him has gotten better and worse over the years, I would have to say the love of my parents. 


I think that'll do. Most answers to my questions are simply about Jesus. ♥ I guess that is the best thing it can be, the most important and best part of my life is the God I love. He is becoming my number one priority more and more each day and I am LOVING IT.

When will my life begin?

HEY FRIENDS.
New post time! It's only been what, a week? I'm not really sure!
So yes, if you know me, or just happen to follow me on twitter, you will know one thing for sures, I LOVE DISNEY. Like, really really love it, almost to the point of obsession. And especially their newest film Tangled (well.. technically it's wreck it ralph but that hasn't come out just yet...) It is AWESOME. And I like singing to all its songs and wonderfulness. Anyway, this is not the point. (I have got to learn to stop rambling.)

At the beginning of the film she sings this song 'when will my life begin?' Which is all about her wanting to leave the tower because well, she's lived their her whole life and doesn't have much to do with her life. Actually, I'm gonna post the song here- 'cause I loves it. 
So yeah, whilst I was watching it one day, I just was thinking about it and was like- well, when does life actually start? People are always quoting things like, 'everybody dies, but few people live' and whatnot. But my thoughts were, What actually counts as living? Doing those things that you really love. Or at least, that's all I've figured out so far. 
And I realised quite how often we stop ourselves from being able to live, due to fear, or boredom, or just so many reasons. I know I do! Rapunzel here, her life barely has begun because she is forced in a tower for the first 18 years of life, but how often do we just never realise that we could open that door and go out into the world? We keep ourselves in the tower, yet make statements about how we should be living our lives to the full and all those things. But do we actually go out or do it, or do we just talk about how cool it would be to do so?
This is just as much for me as for you, I spend most of my life just waiting for the next thing to happen to me, watching various episodes of Dawson's Creek and falling in love with fictional characters whom I know will never be able to hurt me. So yes, this post is a challenge.

Are we stopping ourselves from living life? And why? Do you even want to live life to the full? Jesus wants you to, and so do I.


Okay. That'll do huh?!

Prayer

I love praying.
I mean. I'm not very good at it, but I love just being able to talk to Jesus and have that closeness. If you know me then you know I'm a major fan of the God walk, on which I will walk around my local area and just tell God all about how I'm feeling and basically, I talk to him like I would anyone of you. I mean, what's really cool is that God wants to know all those smalls things about our lives, 'cause he loves us that much. For some people, I know it's all useful to put your hands together and close your eyes and go 'into' that place, but for me to connect with God personally, I find it much easier to just talk?! And then the powerful stuff kinda just comes out when it needs to.

BUT.
I have a question. Well, I have lots of questions about God, which tbh- I'm probably never gonna get answers to, God's cool like that by being too amazing for us to comprehend. But yes, I have a specific one about prayer, and so I was gonna write out my thoughts and if you're reading this and have a faith like me then I would love your input!   

I have been taught to pray a certain way my whole life.
Being brought up in a Christian home I was taught every night before I went to sleep to pray my 'thank you's, sorry's and pleases.' It would go something like this-
'Thank you Lord Jesus for going to school, thank you Lord Jesus for having a nice time, I'm sorry for all the things that I've done wrong when I'm not supposed to. Please help the people who are poorly to get better. Amen.'
And then in Primary school we were taught the Lord's Prayer. So I know that off by heart (although sometimes get a little confused 'cause they've made it more modern so we don't use words like 'trespasses')
But yeah, I'm getting a little off point but I'll get there I promise!
And the when you grow up you get taught to pray with authority, to pray every day consistently and with faith, all those prayers in ACTS and whatnot.

But recently I've been thinking about it, and a dilemma has come up.

I used to have a band saying PUSH. Pray until something happens. So when God doesn't answer you the first time, you are to keep on praying until he does something.

But. The question is:

If God answers our every prayer, why do we have to pray for the same thing more than once?
I mean, don't we believe that God answers our first prayer?! So if we prayer more than once it's like saying- well, I didn't like your answer the first time so I'm gonna keep on praying until you change your mind. If God is the same yesterday today and forever why would he change his mind simply because we ask more than once? Is it more like, him knowing that it really matters to us when we pray over it more than once? But doesn't he already know our heart to know it from the first time? 

In a book I read a while ago- 'redeeming love' which btw- is an awesome book and every one should read it. But yeah, one of the characters would place her worries into a box and give that problem to God, she wouldn't worry about it anymore and just  leave it to him. So that was essentially only one prayer. Is that how we should be, faithful enough in God's judgement that we don't need to ask more than once? Or do we pray more than once for a particular reason I don't know about 'cause not gonna lie, I don't know any way near as much about the Bible as I should do considering the fact I do biblical studies. 

Your input would be lovely on this one!

"To pray in Jesus' name means to pray in his spirit, in his compassion, in his love, in his outrage, in his concern. In other words, it means to pray a prayer that Jesus himself might pray."
Kenneth L. Wilson

We're going through changes.

The Golden Ruler

Okay. This is gonna be a simple post. H0pefully. Or at least just some thoughts on a simple verse that most people know.

I mean, the golden rule huh?! 'Love your neighbour as yourself.' ♥

It couldn't get any simpler than that. You know, do onto your neighbour as you would have them done to you. Even people who don't read the bible use this as a general principle of life. It makes sense ya'no?!

But the question I want to ask is- 'who do you love more, your neighbour or yourself?'
To be honest; I find it a lot easier to love other people than I do myself. When I think about mistakes- when I see people making mistakes I just think that, oh- they're only human, I love them, and you just move on ya'no?! But when I think about myself, I don't forgive myself for the simpliest things. For example, I went to the co-op on sunday and left my debit card at the till only to get it back today after hours of searching for it. And walking up there, I left like the biggest idiot in the world. I just wanted to cry and felt SO stupid. If anyone else had done that, I probably would've said it was a silly thing to do, but I wouldn't give them any grief compared to that which I get myself. And I hate myself for the smallest of things I wouldn't think twice about other people doing.
So yeah. I was thinking about it, and it's quite true that actually, I need to love my neighbour in the same way I love myself. So why do I not love myself?

I know people say that you can only really love other people if you love yourself, but I actually find it a lot easier to love other people. I'm not really sure how that works but what can you do?

So my question, do you love your neighbour more or less than you love yourself? ♥
Think about it.

Apologies..

So yeah. I kinda suck at updating this don't I?

Tbh, I have a ton of quite reasonable excuses but I won't bore you with them!

BUT. Good news folks! I have a TON of new ideas for posts which keep coming to me at the most annoying time (ie when I'm trying to sleep) and so haven't had time to articulate them yet. But they shall be coming ASAP. (like the next post- which hopefully will be up by the end of the day! If I can get the words out properly- you know what I'm like. A bit of a fail sometimes.)

But yes. I have one VERY important thing to say before I go.

God is SO GOOD! Just. wow. Yeah. He's amazing. I love him. You should too.

I ain't missing you at all.

STEP ONE: spell your name with songs.

S-- So Emotional

A- Ain't No Fooling Me.

R- (the) Reason

A- Any way you want it

H- Hit Me With Your Best Shot

STEP TWO:

– name: Sarah Louise Parsons

– birth date: 17/02/93

– eye color: Dark Brown :)

–hair color: Proper Brunette.

– zodiac sign: Don't care.

STEP THREE:

–the shoes you wore today: Black Dollies.

-- your weaknesses: Fear.

– your fear(s): Too many. 

– your perfect pizza: Ohhh it's the really nice store bought one by a company I can't remember... but it's mozzorella (sp) .. but preferably wheat free!

– goal you'd like to achieve: Pass Uni!

STEP FOUR:

– your best physical feature: My legs, My Smile or My Eyes.

– your bedtime? whenever I conk out I guess!

– most missed memory? Oh my uni friendies!

STEP FIVE:

this or that...

– pepsi or coke? Err if I had to pick (I don't like either) I'd say Coke.

– mcdonalds or burger king: Mcdonalds. Everytime. 

– adidas or nike: Err adidas :)

– chocolate or vanilla: OH MY GOODNESS. Chocolate. No question.

– cappuccino or coffee: Hmmm only just starting to like coffee really. Hmm.. I'm gonna say cappuccino though, cause I'm really good at making them :)

STEP SIX:

do you..

– Smoke: Never have never will.

– curse: Only if I'm drunk.

– sing: All the time.

– dance: On the wii?

– want to go to college: I'm at uni indeedy :)

– like high school: It was alright.

– want to get married: Yes, oh my goodness yes!

– get motion sickness: don't think so.

– think you're attractive: .. I don't think I'm ugly?

– think you're a health freak? Haha no!

– get along with your parents: Most of the time.

STEP SEVEN:

in the past month...

– gone to the mall: I have indeedy. Or Cabot anyway!

– eaten an entire box of oreos: Don't like them much.

– eaten sushi: nope! I feel like this should change though.

– been on stage: Nope :(

– gone skating: I don't think so.

– made homemade cookies: No but that really makes me miss Cat's!

– gone skinny dipping: I haven't done that in just under a year!

– stolen anything: I have not.

STEP EIGHT:

ever...

– played a game that required removal of clothing: Don't think so.

- flashed anyone: Hahahahaha... yes. Not on purpose though.

– shoplifted: I have not.

STEP NINE:

– age you hope to be married: Just after uni hopefully!

– numbers of children: 3 or 4.

– describe your dream wedding: It will be amazing. That's all I'm gonna say.

– what country would you most like to visit? malaysia.

STEP TEN:

in the opposite sex..

– best eye color? mmmm Blue.

– best hair color?: Brown.

– short hair or long hair? Short, but I guess long hair suits some people..

– height: Taller than me, deffo. The exact height doesn't really matter though.

STEP ELEVEN:

– number of CDs that i own: too many.

– number of tattoos: none.

– number of piercings: 1 (well.. I set of piercings.)

personal quiz-

who were you with yesterday? Heidi at the cafe, and any one I served.

what woke you up this morning? I don't really remember...

where are you? In bed.

is tomorrow going to be a good day? Hopefully.

do you like anybody? Yeah.

THE PAST:

passed out because of alcohol? I have not! WIN.

whats on your mind RIGHT NOW?  How awesome Tyler Hilton is.

THE FUTURE

what kind of house do you want? one full of love. 

what do you want to be when you grow up? a mummy and a wife :)

where do you see yourself in 5 years? Just finishing my first year of counselling course.

IN GENERAL

do you like candy necklaces? Mmmm yummy :)

when was the last time you fell over or ran into something? Earlier.

do you listen to music every day? I do indeedy.

do you still go trick or treating? never did it in the first place.

what was the last thing you ate? Cottage Pie :)

are you a fast typer? I am! Haze gets proper freaked out by how fast I do so.

whats your favorite type of soda? Lemonade?

have you ever moved? To uni?

have you ever won an award?  Not a proper one.

are you listening to music right now? I am indeed.

how long till your birthday? Err 8 months? I think.

when were you the saddest in your whole life? Yeah let's not go there..

what time is it? 22:50

do you use ebay to buy or sell? I do not.

who makes you mad? Being manipulated to be/behave a certain way.

have you ever heard a song written about you? As far as I'm aware? Nope.

something you want to happen in 2011?  Oooh it's 2012 now. So I don't know.

summer 2010? Was awesome.

honestly,do you miss 2010? Sometimes.

HONESTY SECTION

1. what color is your underwear? Grey.

2. whats on your mind? Missing you.

3. what are you doing right now? Typing here then going to sleep.

6. have you done something bad today? I don't think so?

8. who is the last person you talked to on the phone? Err Mummy :)

9. are you jealous of someone right now? Don't think so.

10. what makes you mad most of the time? Myself.

11. do you bite your nails? Sometimes.

12. have you had an eating disorder? how attention seeking is this question?! No, I have not.

13. do you want to see someone this very moment? That would be nice.

14. are you keeping a big secret now? I am indeed.

15. do you have a friend you dont actually like? They wouldn't be my friend if I didn't like them!

17. are you in denial? Don't think so?

18. do you get up in the middle of the night and eat? I do not.

19. do you like anyone? You've already asked me this. Yes, I do.

20. does anyone like you? Well I did get asked out by a guy as I was on my God walk today, so I guess so!

ANGER SECTION

1. what do you do when you're mad? Nothing. I'm quite passive about it all.

2. whats the worst thing you've done when you were mad? Shouted at people who it had nothing to do with.

3. ever made anyone cry when you were mad? I don't think so.

4. do you swear when you're mad? Only if I've been drinking.

CRYING SECTION

1. when was the last time you actually cried? yesterday, whilst reading a REALLY sweet text.

2. ever cried yourself to sleep? Yes.

3. do certain songs make you cry?  They do.

4. what usually makes you cry? Oh everything. Literally, I cry all the time. It's ridiculous.

HAPPY SECTION

1. are you a happy person? I try to be :)

2. what makes you the happiest? Jesus :)

4. do you believe in yourself? I try to.

5. when people say they think you are good looking/pretty,do you get happy? A little bit.

Reading

Okay.. I was gonna wait to do another one of these posts until I'd read a few more books, but I fell in love with a new book SO HARD that I just had to blog about the two I've read in the last well, 24 hours! 

So yeah.. I'll do the not so exciting one first.

Princess Diaries 10 - Meg Cabot.

I've read it before, but only once and a few years ago. It's like.. almost completing my childhood in some weird way. One of the first books I read for myself was the 2nd book (why I read it before the first I still don't know) and I just like.. grew up with Mia Thermopolis. Fell in love with Michael, and basically, the books, albeit being rather young for me now, and lacking in any main plotline for the most part, are so lovely. I loved reading them, and loved being taken on a ride with Mia until she FINALLY *spoiler* ends up with Michael and yay! Life is good again. I love those sorts of books. :) 6.5/10

So yes. Here's the one I LOVED.

Delirium - Lauren Oliver

THIS BOOK IS INSANE. EVERYONE SHOULD READ IT. AHHHHHH! I loved it. I read it in less than a day, and pretty much couldn't put it down once I'd gotten to the half way point, it took me on a whirlwind. It's about a world where love is apparently a 'disease' and when you're 18 you have to have this cure. And yeah, for starters- I loved it because I love the fight about like.. NO LOVE IS AMAZING. Because let's be honest here- everyone knows I'm a soppy romantic. And my goodness, half the stuff that happened I was just.. never expecting. I was so expecting it to be about one thing that when the rest of it went out I was like... WHAT?! The plot line was really clever, and the fight is just.. ahh I can't give this book enough praise. I want to read the sequel already. WHY DON'T I HAVE IT YET?! Oh wait, because it only just came out and is not in the library yet. At least a 8.5/10 - AT LEAST.

Okay. There we go. :)

Sunday afternoon

Start at the very beginning, what's your name?

Sarah Louise Parsons

 Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? 

I own two pairs, and I love them. :) 

If you were invisible for a day, what would you do?

 I have no idea. Probably spy, I'm just a tad nosey.

Does the person you like, like you back?

I have no idea! Deffo like.. platonically at least.

 What did you do last night? 

I can't even remember. Haha eventful huh?! Oooh I remember! I was having a bad day so I cried in bed whilst watching Moulin Rouge with ice cream and cake :)

 Has anybody ever given you butterflies? 

Indeed they have, although this is incredibly rare.

Are you your mum’s favorite child?

Hahaha she doesn't have favourites.

 Are you happy with the way things are going?

Yeah I guess.

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?

I always wake up in the middle if the night.

 Sleep on your back or stomach? 

On my stummy :)

 What were you doing before this survey?

 Blogging.

 Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles? 

 I do quite a bit yes, no idea why though!

How long does it take for you to fall asleep at night?

 Oh ages these days.

 It’s Thursday night, where are you usually? 

 Hmmm I dunno, at uni I'll be at the interval with Jon and Jake (and sometimes Benji) playing Munchkin and other fun things.

Your Christmas list consists of?

 I have not thought that far ahead..

 What movie is in your DVD player? 

The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe.

If you could move away, no questions asked, where would you move?

Mmmm, probably Texas.

 What's the greatest thing that happened to you today? 

Being reminded that I'm loved.

Have you ever felt like you weren't good enough?

Far too often.

 What’s going on tomorrow night? 

 Ooh I don't know actually! 

Do you know a lot of people with the same phone as you? 

 Well I have an iphone, so yes.

Is your hair curly or straight right now?

Straight I thinks. 

 What do you really think of Starbucks Coffee? 

 I LOVE STARBUCKS. But not so much coffee.

 Does anyone love you? 

Yes, yes they do :)

Want to be taller or shorter?

I like my height :)

What are you listening to?

http://youtu.be/QUypt2nvorM

 When was the last time you really laughed?

I can't remember actually... it was probably at myself though.

Do you listen to music every day?

Probably :)

Last song you heard?

 So emotional - Glee.

 Is the last person that you had a conversation with a male or a female? 

female.

 What’s the last thing you said out loud?

I can't remember. I did just say 'okay' to Haze though.

 How was your day?

It was rather nice thank you.

Describe how you feel right now in three words:

 Tired but okay.

 If someone asked you what you wanted, what would you say? 

Err I have no idea.

Has a girl sat on your bed before?

They have.

 Plans for Saturday? 

Headed to Sheffs!

Who was the last person besides yourself to touch something on your face?

Probably my mummy.

 What was your dream about last night?

 Oh gosh let's not go there. It was WEIRD.

Do you have a reason to smile right now?

I do.

 Where were you at 9 am this morning? 

Asleep.

Everything happens for a reason?

 Yes.

 Are you too forgiving?

I don't think that's actually possible, I do believe in the power of forgiveness though, yes.

 Do you think people talk about you?

Most likely.

 Do you and your parents get along? 

As well as most parents and children do.

 This time last year, were you single? 

 I was indeed.

 Have you ever been searched by the cops? 

I have not.

 Do you always wear your seat belt? 

Oh yes, I get far too scared otherwise!

Have you ever liked someone who all your friends hate?

Yes indeedy.

 Is there someone you wouldn’t mind kissing right now? 

 I wouldn't MIND I guess... ;_

Ever sang a whole song without missing any lyrics?

All the timme. I love song lyrics. :)

 Has someone close to you ever told you they were going to commit suicide because of you? 

err no?

 Do you think you’ve changed over the past year? 

Oh I've changed so much over the last year. But for the better, and I only have the big man to thank for that.

Do you care if people talk badly about you?

I do, but I'm trying not to.

 Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? 

 Yes. Yes yes yes yes yes.

Where were you at 10:17 pm last night and what were you doing?

Watching Moulin Rouge in bed.

 Other than this, what are you doing? 

Talking to Snippy.

Were you happy when you woke up today?

I honestly can't remember...

 Who did you last get into a big argument with?

Oh gosh probably one of my family.

Last thing you ate?

 Chocolate Moose.

 What are you looking forward to in the next three months? 

Spain :D

Are you a morning person or a night person?

Night. Definitely an owl.

 Has anyone sang to you? 

 Oh yes.

How often do you lose your voice?

I've only ever lost it completely once. But almost loosing it, far too much!

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months?

Hahaha.. err yes :/

 Be honest, do you like people in general? 

 I LOVE people.

 Does anybody hate you? 

 Probably

Is there something you’re looking forward to next month?

SPAIN

Does it bother you when people get drunk?

Not really. I got drunk far too many times this year for it that to bother me!

 Are you mad at someone right now? 

Only a little bit.

 Will tomorrow be a good day?

It should be.

Do you like hugs and kisses?

LOVE THEM.

What’s on your bed?

me.

Last person on your bed?

Me.

Is there one person in your life that can always make you happy?

Jesus Christ.