Haven't written in a while- ooopsies!
Sorry about that- well, I don't really know who actually reads this but am sorry if anyone has been looking at this page and being very bored at my lack of postage. But here I am now so I guess that makes up for it right? Let's hope so. :)
So basics. I kinda had a revelation in Church yesterday and felt like I should share it, as either an encouragement or just as a challenge- depends on how you see it I guess.
I haven't exactly been living the life of a good Christian atm if I'm being honest, I was gonna say that I'm not as bad as I could be, but I realised that was wrong in itself because let's be honest here- sin IS sin. No matter how big or small we might view it. So yeah. I've been living pretty awfully at the moment. I've been getting drunk, knowing that God doesn't like it, and not caring. Which tbh makes me feel bad to begin with, but then the more drunk I get the less I remember. And then in the morning I just feel awful; like I let God down. Well, I know I've let him down. I hate that. But yeah. Recently I've been feeling so rubbish that I just wnna forget about it all. It's not much of an excuse but yeah.
And then I turned up to Church (with a hangover, none the less, at 7 in the evening) I heard this line in which it said- "you've set your hope in me." And I realised I could no longer live this way. I wasn't even doing it for anything other than an escape, and God gave everything for me, and he loves me so much he set his hope in me!! That I would just get off my high horse and realise that all I need is God. I know this, I always have known God as my saviour. If he's set his hope in me then what the heck am I doing getting drunk and generally refusing to give him the time of day except on a sunday?! That's ridiculous, and completely uncalled for. It's time to change. Things can change. If I want to be a good witness for Christ, and I want that close relationship, then I need to start acting like it. And that I shall start doing, as of now. Finit.
