Tuesday 15 October 2013

Your love never fails, never gives up, never runs out on me

'Your love never fails, never gives up, never runs out on me.'

I remember singing this in Church a while ago (last September actually - that's now behind I am in my blog thoughts) and was really very challenged. God just said to me- 'Do you really believe that Sarah?'
This is not just me believing in his love and goodness and his love for me. God never gives up on me. His love for me will never run out.
- That's a pretty crazy thought huh?
I'm still not sure if I fully believe it- but there you go! I'm working on it.

But I'm gonna challenge you now!
Do you believe that God's love can never fail you? That his love never gives up on you? That it could never run out on you? If you don't- why not?

Ponder on that for a while. Have a new (or first!) revelation of his love. I dare you.
Love & Blessings.
Sarah x

Sunday 13 October 2013

I need more time

So, this post was not really planned so I have no idea how it's going to turn out- just a bit of a warning for you all! Let's hope some point comes across :)

If you didn't know- this past Thursday was world mental health day, a day which means a lot to me. Mental Health stigma needs to stop- full stop. There's nothing okay about it. People looking like you and acting like you're simply faking it and that you're looking for attention is just- horrendous. When you feel as bad as you do you cannot imagine how horrible it is when no one even slightly understands, when you feel the whole world is against you and people then tell you that actually what you're feeling is pretty much invalid- it just adds to those feelings making you feel worse than you did in the first place.

Basically- this is no joke. Life is genuinely difficult with depression- worse than you can imagine. I was gonna write a bit about my experiences but I can't really think much today which makes it harder to describe. But here

Imagine if you've broken your leg, and people would refuse to give you crutches saying it was all in your head- it's similar to that. I know it's only an analogy but imagine how mad you would be if you had a broken leg and people refused to give you help. It would be rubbish. And it's rubbish for me too.

It's a real thing- mental illness, you get absolutely no choice in the matter- it's not like you are just unappreciative, there is nothing within you that wants you to be happy, even when you are- there's this part of you which is jut waiting for you to sink and you end up feeling worse than you did to begin with. Can you imagine how guilty we feel when we know how good we've got it? You know how awesome my life is? I have brilliant friends- a brilliant family, I want for practically nothing. And yet I still hate my life. How ridiculous is that?I I want to be happy- I want to enjoy my life- my brain literally refuses to. It's horrific.

I'm not really sure what my point is- but whatevs. Here you go. ♥ 
Love & Blessings,
Sarah

Sunday 6 October 2013

No Work too Hard for Him

One of the many posts I've written over the summer holidays so here we go-


"No work to hard for him, in faith receive from him."

-This is from one of my favourite songs (link will be posted at the bottom of this post.)

Fellow depressees, PD's, BP's, etc- read this and have comfort.
There is no work that is too hard for Jesus.
Sometimes, at least for me, it feels like I have so so so many issues and unresolved feelings and self-hatred that I am never gonna get out of this mess. Each step I try and untangle myself I just come out with some many more problems I feel even worse than I did when I started. I judy think to myself- WHAT IS THE POINT??

Then I am reminded of this phrase- no work is too hard for him. If God can move mountains, can turn back death itself- then there must be hope for someone like me. If I put my trust in him- I must be able to get out of this mess. There is always hope.

Love and Blessings, Sarah x

(Short but sweet huh?) I also apologise for the really cheesy video but what can you do?

Friday 4 October 2013

You're Beautiful For Me

Man it's been a long time, I can't even remember what font I use or anything- I think I might need to remodel my blog anyway- but yes. If this is a little sketchy I apologise- it'll probably be a lot rough around the edges.

So I wrote a bunch of blogs on paper over the summer holidays (well... 3) and I never posted them so I thought I would now (that and I am not having the greatest day so I just need to focus on Jesus right now.) So here we go.. I'll post one today, and then another tomorrow and another on Sunday I reckon- we'll see- you know how bad I am at keeping promises about updating my blog haha.

Okay. So this is called-

Life Verses♥

Do you have one? Do you even know what I mean when I say life verse? 
I didn't really recognise mine for what they were until Steve's funeral when Daniel told us about Steves. (Man I miss Steve and Mandy.) I like to think of it as a verse that sums up your identity and purpose. One that you can hold on to and aspire to on your bad days, just for some encouragement and refreshment.

I have two (yay me.)
One, was given to me on my baptism day, and one that the person who gave it to me was more certain than ever  before that I was meant to receive that verse. (Didn't write that down properly I don't think- What she said was that she was never more certain of God telling her to do this particular thing. You know when you think he wants you to do something or give someone a verse or picture but you're not sure? Yeah, except this verse she gave me was the one time she knew in her heart so strongly that God wanted her to do this, she had more conviction for it than ever before about any word of picture. MAN that was long-winded and probably didn't make any sense, sorry!) The verse goes:

'The Lord your God has chosen you out of all of the peoples of the earth to be his own, his treasured possession,' Deut 7:6 

If you know me at all- you will probably have some idea of why this verse is so special to me, and why I cling to it till this day. If you don't know me, basically it's like this- I am incredibly insecure, and I have had the constant belief for as long as I've lived that I was never worth anything, and always second rate- not worth it. So hearing something like this- he chose ME out of everyone- is a pretty darn big deal.

The second was given to me about a year ago; it says-

'Glorious things are said of you, O city of Zion... and they will say- this one was born in Zion.' Psalm 87

Often when I'm having a bad day and feeling, let's say- not so great about being alive - I am always prompted this verse. It is a sign of hope for my future. I am fighting this for a reason, to fight for God's Kingdom in the area of Mental Health- This is God's plan, and I will get there. Thank you Jesus

Basically, the point of this verse was to encourage you to find a life-verse, it is such a blessing to have over my life. (and this is what I had written down on the end of my written version-) Basics- I think you should find yours, because it's a massive encouragement.



So that's it folks. Hope it made some sense and that you are blessed. Major love and prayers for you all. 
Love and Blessings,
Sarah